It has been months since our last post. We are busy being a family. God is amazing.
I learned this week that a student in my class was going to bed hungry. This child was abandoned by his mother, who has a drug addiction, and left with his grandmother. Before his mom left she took all the money and food stamps. She is now in jail. Being a mother who has adopted from a forgien country I sometimes forget that children in my immediate reach are living lives of tragedy. God had been speaking to me about this child for several weeks. I assumed it was because of his obvious behavior issues. Little did I know that his world was crumbling. Just when I start to notice the "stuff" in my life that I want (ie. new carpet, shoes, ect..) God breaks my heart for a child who just needs love. He reminds me that he has given me blessings, not because I have earned them but because he expects me to give them away. "Touch the life of other people," he says to me. He knows I am not perfect. He knows the most disgusting thoughts that I have. He is not shocked and he does not turn away. He says look here and shows me that the glory is his. My life was not created to be perfect but to point to the only one who is.
God forgive me for my pity parties. Let my life not be about my material possessions but let it be about the people you love. Help me to spend the money you give to our family to touch the hearts of others. Point me in the direction you would have me go. In Jesus name Amen.
...once our eyes are opened, we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act.....